Lying to you feels like a cardinal sin
A confliction
I need a vocation of some sort
Where my mind feels freer
Where my heart opens

When the flight seems slow
Where the mind redeems
Something
Anything to get me through the night
To get me through 
The Mighty Roar
At the back of my mind

We fled the scene of the crime
I had dreams
I had dreams of us dancing in Maine
Your pernicious behaviour
My lack of integrity 
The months we wanted a do-over
The challenged mind 
It changed me 
Forever

Our tears fell down the wall
We spent the afternoon reflecting on
The wasted moments
We're not receding
We're not defeated
We're conceding now
Aren't we? 

The familiar waiting with bated breath
The socks worn inside out
The fingernails painted brick-red
Here we go again

It turns out removing you
from my life is harder than it looks
I could've just not given you my number
But I wanted to make things more fun
Maybe this was self-harm?

The desire to cut my hair to my scalp
The note he never gave me
The sanity I'm longing for
Here we go again

Past lovers never rose to the surface 
But somehow you did
I keep choosing a disruptive world
Where you and I somehow work
And we keep going and going again